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Outside: Short Story III – Staying up to watch the sunrise

Outside: Short Story III – Staying up to watch the sunrise

Author’s Note: This is the third story written from a series of short stories called “Outside”. Which you can read more here. This story is fictional but I can relate to my character, when some in their 70s tries to compare the experience with mine, it’s not the same.

“When I was your age…”

My uncle drones about his endless energy. How he and his friends at the time would stay up all night to watch the sunrise.

Meanwhile, I lie in my bed almost forced to listen to his stories.

“You’re lucky you’re so young” he continues.

I know in some weirded out version of reality that he has of me, of the…life I’m living. His stories help.

But they don’t.

I may be young in age, but I’ve never gotten the “youth” he so rapturously talks about.

My first “stint” in a hospital happened when I was 8.

I had to skip grade 3 as I was in and out of hospital that year.

The next few years weren’t much better but at least I could go to school.

I’m 16 now, and this boundless  energy he talks about is something I can only imagine.

I go to bed at eight on the dot every evening. This isn’t just because I get tired easily at night, it’s because if I stay up later, I pay for it, my body make me pay for it – I loose control of my legs, migraines start, a late night pretty much equals a night full of vomitting.

* * * *

“Serena, will you with me to the seniors ball next week?” Matt, the most popular senior in my highschool, asks me.

Knowing what I just mentioned that a late night has it’s price, what do you think my answer would be?

I decide to go. What?! you ask, let me put this in perspective, I’m 16 and like any other 16 year-old fitting in is important to me. At least I can appear I’m a normal 16. Although the price on my body will have to be paid later that evening. It will be worth it. I think.

I go to ball, the night was wonderful. But like I said now I have to pay up. My legs just make it to the bed. I lie curled up in ball.If I don’t move the world will stop spinning, I convince myself. I glance at my bedside clock, it’s 3am. I haven’t gotten to sleep. I’ve just been lying here, still in fetal position waiting for this, whatever it is to pass. My limbs are throbbing.

Looking from the outside, I can imagine you think: Why would anyone knowingly do that to themselves?

Again, in a bid to appear normal; to fit in, this is my price.

“I’ve got arthritis now too, Serena” my uncle of 72 says.

At least my uncle got to have an average experience of being young, I have never stayed up to watch the sunrise, I’m afraid if I even tried, the price certainly wouldn’t be worth it.

Author’s Note: In Serena’s story, we see a glimpse of the impact a medical condition has on a teen. It is a very  difference experience of someone 3 or 4 times her age.

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